Tuesday, January 17, 2012

my next 30 years

My workouts have been great! Started out strong, then bam, I have bursitis! CRAP! I can barley walk, run, etc. So I have taken the last week off and it seems to be getting a little better. The bad thing is that I think I am overcompensating with my other leg and now feel it in that knee. I have been living on Ibuprofen, and icing it. Not much else I can do but rest to get it better. I have been watching what i eat and counting calories except for Saturday and Sunday. It was my 30th birthday! My cute husband planned a big party. We have a really good friend that is the king of smoking, smoking meat that is. We had brisket, dutch oven potatoes, salad, yummy baked beans and killer cornbread. Yup, not healthy but soooooooooooooo yummy. Oh wait to for get to add the princess cake! Then on Sunday, Zac's dad was passing through town heading back home from Washington and so we went to dinner with him at Hoppers. If you haven't been there go, it is awesome!  I had calamari, so not on the diet but I love it! 

      My biggest reason for writing this post is to write down my thoughts about turning 30. It really made me reflect on my life, and where I am at, and where I thought I would be at this age 10 years ago. When I was 20 I thought about were I wanted to be in 10 years. I wanted to have this huge house, lots of money, an expensive car,and of course I wanted kids too. Well needless to say, I am not rich, I don't have a huge house, but I love my house. I don't have a really expensive car, but guess what, I do have a pretty bad A truck! ;) I look back at my young, nieve self and think how superficial I was. The last 10 years has been a roller coaster of ups and downs and sides to sides. Life has through me some mean curve balls, but, I have learned so much about myself, who I am, and who I want to become. I have become less materialistic and I have to say I LOVE where I am at age 30. I wouldn't change it for the world.  I Am grateful for the hard times in life, and let me tell you I feel like I have hit rock bottom.  Do you know what rock bottom makes you do... it makes you look up. It makes you realize what you have, what's really important, and puts life into perspective. I feel like my life is so full, I have 3 wonderful little boys who mean the world to me. I have an amazing husband, who is my best friend, and I have a dog who has been a great companion. What I have come to realize is that, what means the most to me is what is inside the walls of my home, my family. I could live in a shack if I had to, just as long as I had them. 
      To my next 30 years...wow I will be 60, lets just go with 10 years. I hope you are full of fun camping trips with my boys. I hope we can add another child to the mix. I would love to become a nurse,  but most of all I just hope for a close family bond and relationship. That is what matters most to me.


Thursday, January 5, 2012

Operation Shrink A$$

I love my children, really I do but I hate what they have done to my body. After #3 I have decided enough is enough and I am going to get my fat butt in shape. I am sick of feeling yucky, for lack of a better word, about myself. I want to look good in my swimsuit and not feel like a beached whale. I want to feel sexy, and feel good about how I look. It isn't all about physically looking good it is also about mentally feeling good. Working out helps me have some time to myself, time to think, time to enjoy nature and helps me clear my head. I LOVE the way I feel when I am done. So I have decided to take you all along with me for the ride. I know I am not the only one out their feeling this way so I invite you to join me in my fight to be fit. I call it a fight because it is hard, it is an uphill battle, but I KNOW I can do it and so can you! I have gotten myself a trainer and I am excited to share his little tips and tricks with you! I have also taken a before picture but I am scared to post it because it isn't pretty. I want to post my measurements but I am scared of that too. I am determined to do this to show you that it can be done and to show myself. I have always had so much self doubt about getting my body back, so help me do this. Lets do it together. I would love for you to post your progress or link me to your blog or whatever. Maybe we could do a challenge. I don't know. I just know if I have people doing it with me it will be easier. So here is to 2012, and a fit me!